Have you ever had a moment or a day where you look back + think… “Damn, I killed it right there”?!
That’s the kind of day I had today + I had to share how I’m feeling with you guys. I’m well aware that some people may read this post + think, wow, she’s really conceded… but I sure hope you’re not one of those people because it’s taken me a long time to get to this place.
If you follow my story, you know I used to struggle with anxiety + depression for years. These struggles of mine came along when I was in my late teens through my mid 20’s. I had such depression that I truly believed I was just about worthless + had no self confidence that I was ever going places in my life, or would ever accomplish any sort of goal. My anxiety was also a barrier that I dealt with on a daily basis- I couldn’t do things like hang out with friends or family, enjoy a meal out at a restaurant, or pick out an outfit for the day without panicking. This process took years for me to overcome with the help of medical professionals + a support system that totally rocks (friends + family you know who you are). ❤
If you’ve ever been in a place where you’ve doubted yourself like I just described or thought, “Am I ever going to amount to something”? “Are my ideas worthy of actually sharing with others”? … Then you’re not alone. I’ve thought these things over + over again for years + I can’t even begin to tell you how much I appreciate the actual hard work it takes to believe in yourself when it doesn’t come naturally.
If you’re thinking to yourself that you can totally relate to what I’m talking about here, know it’s possible to pull yourself out of that challenging + sometimes dark space of self-doubt. I used a ton of positive affirmations each day + did some true soul searching to find what my passion was in life as an adult to reach a place where I actually believed in myself. Yes it felt ridiculous at times to tell myself how smart or beautiful I was each day, but it was also incredibly empowering to actually KNOW that I am a deserving person who has a lot to offer the world. It also felt incredible to start connecting to things that made my heart beat faster + stay up late at night thinking + dreaming about. That leads me to where I’m at today.
This morning started with an exciting conference call between two amazing women + myself. The call was pre-arranged + I knew that if all went as planned, we would end up working together on an exciting project together. We discussed our thoughts + I shared my vision for the event. I was calm + excited (which almost never happens at once) because I show my emotions on my sleeve. 😉 My ideas + vision for the event were affirmed over + over throughout the call + when we wrapped up, it was a sure thing…. We will partner together on an exciting project later this fall (more deets to come in the next few weeks so hang tight, guys)! 😉
The incredible thing was that when the call ended I thought to myself, I could have never been doing this if I were still the broken person I was 6 years ago + didn’t believe in myself right now, today. I had this moment of reassurance + pride in myself when I hung up that phone + I can’t describe it, but it felt incredible. I’m not sure why it hit me this morning, but I really had a feeling come over me that I am truly in the right place at the right time, doing what I’m meant to be doing. It also helped me realize one thing: I have all of the power I need to succeed at my dreams, all I need to do is believe in myself. + one other thing… I totally killed it today! *Let me know what you’re killing it in lately, I’d love to hear from you! ❤